Thou shalt sin........for thou has taste the forbidden fruit

Months without an official updates on my blog and the first time i did, it's a confession.

And yah....I have a confession to make.

I have sin.

That is, i've let my 'friends' lead me to the world of lust, booze and bust.

What art thou, you asked? Read on....




So it's a friday casual night. It's knockoff time. Time for me to relax, to visit Kino every weekly and buy my usual dosage of comic books. But then, this friday is abit different. One of my colleagues suggested me to follow them on one of their 'happy hour' trip. I thought 'why not? It's been AGES (half a decade actually) since i actually visit those nightly sights. The comics could certainly wait for a few days'. And so i followed them. And thus, my path of lust begins....


'Ok, so.......it's a trip to Geylang?' is the only thing in my mind when we reached the destination. Okay, we are certainly NOT going to visit any brothel but then just somewhere near, one of those 'KTVs' that is.....but take note, this is certainly not the K-BOX ktv and certainly not one of those that i'll ever dare venture on. My colleague ask me to bring some 'spare cash' and initially, i was bewildered by that. 15 minutes inside the 'KTV', i finally knew the purpose of those 'spare cash'.....

The initial first few minutes, i just pick a song and sing. Not much difference from any KTV, just more smell of booze and ciggerettes. But when the first female just came in to our room out of nowhere and sit right next to one of my colleague, i knew what i was into. 5 minutes later, more ladies came in. One by one, they sited beside us. Initially, i rejected one of the ladies. But lo and behold, after succumbing to peer pressure, one lady is already at my side, pouncing on me like a wolf eyeing on its prey. I was trying hard to sing the song but the temptation kicks into overdrive. Plus, i was really curious about the 'whole procedure'. Let it be known to all that read this blog that i am STILL a virgin (at age 25 as of 2007) with NO experience of hanky panky whatsoever (NEVER had a gf before and i really don't care). So when she started to go touchy, i decided to go with the flow of the game. I touched her bum, then her bust and when she decided to go with the lips part, i said in my heart 'Hell fuck? Why not?'.

So yeah, she kissed me and i kissed her.

And then she did the tongue on me, and i of course did it on her too.

Mind you, this is as far as it goes.

After that, she made the excuse to leave but promised she'll be back. I knew she's probably going to serve other 'prospective clients' next door so i allowed her to leave while i made my trip to the gents............to rinse my mouth.


There you go, my virgin kiss, gone with winds, gone with the whore (as if anybody cares).

After that, i went back to the room. While my other colleagues started to go more 'happy' with the other girls, i just sit there and continue my singing session, pretending to look hack care while they do whatever they do with the ladies.


Throughout the whole 4 hours+ session, i was singing most of the time while them lechers just continue their thing. 'My girl' never came back (thanks goodness) until when the place is gonna close. She apologised for not 'attending' to me and said of the excuse that it's friday night (the exact reason maybe that there are more clients the next door but whatever!). I know it's transaction so i paid her $20. She gave me a kiss again followed by another half heartedly tongue which i pretend to enjoy (but really reject with disgust). It's not definitely not money well spent....but for a first time experience, this is definitely 'rewarding'.......definitely much more 'enlightening' then watching those on TV and read on books.


When i return home that night, the first thing i did is to brush my teeth and also take a good bath to clean off the filth. After that, i was feeling extremely pathetic....that my genesis kiss is given that to a fucking #$%#^^%. I really feel ashame of myself. Don't get me wrong, i'm no men of righteous morals nor am i a fan of fantasy romantism but this is something that's definitely not to be proud of.


So now i am here, typing my infamy of shame, wondering can time be turned back. But heck, what the FUCK!!! I'll get it over. Yes, i am pathetic. Yes, no real decent girls want me. But now, at an old age of 25, i no longer have that dreams of romantic love or whatnot. Whores or not, fuck it all to hell. From now on, i turn my mind to my career, my studies, and of course, to the big fat $$$$. All other matters can shit to HELL for all i care!..


And so till the next entry,

out.